Spider Web
There’s a balance somewhere of wanting
To know the simple of love
Like a backdrop on an anonymous voyeur to all these
days
As if you could be a still aside to every inch of this
lonely
The vagabond double life I dream exists
An accoutrement of hope like a droplet antidote
To all those high school photographs where smiling
Felt like a conundrum of locks in a social shoe box
Of letters to a junior high me who lied to himself
About a phantom co-assassin pinning his arms back
In his first ass kicking teeth nudging denture prompting
charade
With inactive arms just taking the brunt of it for some
misguided Christian motive
An agnostic liver of days with faith in little
But a religion of immutability stacking up like
Alphabet block pre school explanations to a juvenile mind
Keeping with the program of a simplistic void in easily
spelled four letter words
Of needing to go out more and social inadequacies like a
parade
Of bureaucrats in a federation of the mundane flour coated
acceptance
Of what is and will be of no drugs, no companions, no counterparts
And no explanations outside this self, this tyrannical demon
Of self exploration and analysis like a thrashing gorger
With a gaping maw of overabundant turbine teeth churning
That will just never stop devouring the silences
That could allow for a stagnant id and an evolving world
To transpose existences in a make believe game of doing
Of getting out and mastering social expertise
Of vagabond children with parents who are too busy to
notice
There is no answer coming from the other room
Self-parenting over load grown three decades beloved
Sliver of hope that you exist in that droplet
I could dream of that droplet like prism water caught in a
spider web
And one day you may devour me from this world like a
miraculous black widow
And consume all I have ever known
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