Things I do not understand
about God
God, why can’t we evolve away
our toe and finger nails?
Are we going to need claws in
the future to tear each other apart?
At the seams, at the jugular
gripping and shredding and blood letting
Us scrape away the coverings
of what keeps us so preciously human
God, why are you so concerned
with the gifts I give to you?
What parent is like that,
certainly not mine or my self to my daughter?
All I ever wanted was my
child to have independent joys
Not to sit in a box employed
at ingratiating me with her gratitude
For simply retaining the
ability to exist
As if existence in and of
itself as the opportunity provided is an equitable gift
These scars and these bars
and these blessings and stars crossed for individual sums
To be stacked up and counted
some how recount an appreciation mandated to be
Professed on schedule to you
I can’t believe you want or
need that, maybe we were never intended to be your door mats
To swipe those zero atom feet
on, a pawn shop love we put up and turned in
For some quick cash sacrament
to feel good about the other things we want to do
When we wish to ignore you
and get back in your graces
Or what if we just obey and
stay within the fences we built for our selves
That you never intended to
tell the world were so important, just the logistics
Of a prerecorded argument up
for debate in this sand desert maze
Keeping the hell out of
people spun like cotton candy lies so easily shredded
In the vices of drugs, sex
and lies and all the alibis’ of being too shy
To say what we want or say
being good is good enough that we have to feel obligated
To thank you or some where
inside we will be taken in the night to a fiery plight
Why do you even want or need
my prayers?
Am I just checking it to
retain the right to climb up those stairs to your heaven?
With these useless toe nails
gripping impediments to my morality to deviate from the nexus
I get it, I get it, I love
with a love that is not a transient derelict occasionally bludgeoning strangers
with hateful sentiments.
I am a consistent father and
you are too, but in all this confusion life demands that I feel guilty that I
will never praise you enough for this opportunity and in my heart I think you
just want us to live after we have remained plugged in.
All these stories and
lectures they all seem to be so much conjecture
Please clarify these times,
so peacefully and maybe you have with in me.
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