The Anchors of Egotism

The Anchors of Egotism

Narcissistic penchants scribing stories of my toes

Wrinkles in between the roads

Of my paths and stop signs

Giving lines out like a coach calling a depleted time out

Penalty is coming for running around in circles

As if the gaze of all this upward maze

Was appropriate for the circumstance

To take these hands to understand

Tribal council try and count me

In that number that remains as if I could utter the right phrase

That was not about my own days and listen

To all the others buzzing and all the hive in loving

All the problems within the comb and propose

A road to solve them, so concerned with just with what I could learn

The egotism is like prison to become just a man

At the taxi-stand with a thumb out for eternity

Sisyphus in all of us, repeating the mistake of trust

To hold it in like a paradigm for an isolated life

Mardi Gras parade and trinket faith hurled in gross

In dozens for most someone will propose

An exit strategy to this conundrum in the path way

The hedges high and that taxi ride is coming

Before sunset if I could find the color to bleed out some hoping

This one was not supposed to be about me

Yet I can not find the words to get free

Of my own means and life

Knowing about the world despite

All the thousand keys to one set of hand cuffs

And I somehow choose to pick none of them up

So blind, so blind and so I will, give a damn two weeks

From next Thursday when autumn starts to grow

On me like a fungus of the winter to come

Such a waste of time to cry, such a battle between the you and the I

Alphabet soup to spew and all that is left is the world in syllabic mildew

Rotting up there on the walls like molded black specs to recall

The storms of times where I, where I could only converse on a hallow line

One script and I have had enough of it, jump on out and bust the year

Like a shotgun beer, just down it now and ask questions later

Because the time is coming and yes, there will be time to save her

For conscious contemplation after the teenage exuberant celebrations