Lotus
Static shock and blocked
direction locked to this spot
You are not my answer, you are
not my messiah
You are just another candle
floating on an un-tethered lotus upon these waters
Moving in the currents and
colliding and residing
Back in a divergent direction
and the loneliness creeps back
With a purified strain in its
allocation to my blood stream
The immunity of that bliss
has passed wanting to believe
There was a sail on this mast
Aimless and godless, where is
your power? Where is your concern?
Why would you care? Why would you love? Are you selfish?
Are you even a self? Truth like a backpack and the bottom has
fallen out.
Trying not to give up,
wanting a reason to fill that glass
The longer I stick around the
closer to the ground
Conscious thought fogs in,
that this is all there is
Planets and celestial all the
same there as heaven, as hell
Apathy drenching and all the
faces keep on pelting
The difference between love
and sex and
In the splinters I have
nothing left
All these fingers have left
me numb and I have none
On either side of that divide
of you or I
The lotus floats and rows and
there the petal stows
The seeds of hallucinogenic
means grasping at the straws of incomplete
Too short to reach the liquid
edge of where the solid meets the dredge
Of filaments beneath the
parts of speech I wish you would bequeath
To me like parting gifts to
describe the life we could have lived
In a parallel life in a
parallel time, where you were more certain
And I was caked in so much
less grime, all around this drifting stint
Wanting to pray and feeling
limp
To know the purpose pure of
penitent or recusant
Redemption, supplication, to
bow down with the whole costumed nation
Naked emperor in China’s
agnostic fervor call out and fall out
To the mystery tree in Singapore, Peter rock solid and hop scotch to Holland
Van Gogh obsessing with
asceticism in letters to Theo and let it go
To binge anew and the silence
swirls the absence like a magnetic butterfly
Drawing in and in the end,
the lotus rows and there she goes
Blinking out of focus like a
shutter fly, and where did I? where did
I?
Fulfill the task, do the
good, traverse the maze and there the center stood
Like the golden fleece on the
inner oak for Ares waiting for the Argonauts
Finding redemption and
damnation in the same grasp, how do I distinguish the two?
How do I ask?
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