Spelunking

Spelunking

Just in a dire to be inspired

Slunk over for the white-horse times

To believe beyond these lines

These mangled logistics are like prison bars

Asking any visitor to get locked up in here with me

The depressing overtones come in waves and lie here estranged

From every modicum of concern bleeding over into a feeling

I thought I could learn to believe in as pertinent

All these diamond mines to go find stoned over faith

Chisel it out and out and damned thought I had it in these hands

Just an over-run generator lighting up a dark place and stage for

Over-worked miners get lost as spelunking climbers

Hoping to see the light they use to see trapped down here in me

Searching for something they wish they never went searching for

All I can do is apologize for the lives I have cost them

Should have never allowed for their assistance

Just leave me down with my monsters and say good day  

Well intentions and diligent helpers, but I have got booby traps and bells

Ringing alarms that no one can fix what is so lost and gone

I am in a dire to be inspired

Slunk over for the white-horse times

To believe beyond these lines

I am seeking an ampersand like an outstretched hand

Won’t you conjoin with my conjunction &

I know it is not your function

A lie I keep inside, because I am afraid to change

I tried before & before and it just left me estranged

From hope ever further like a feeling I can no longer emote

So I buried this jewel in a cavern some place away

There was a reason that I think I should take

For granite-clarity this is just the way it has to be