You see I am not
capable of loving you the way you need
I berate the grid
of who I tolerate my self to be
Far too much to
ever find a parallel avenue for you to traverse
Even if you
wished to attempt such folly
I have convinced
myself that loneliness is a constant
Preferable to the
torment of being despised by someone
I had the
childish audacity to attempt to love
Intelligence, beauty,
discipline, energy, effort
Lies,
disconcerting conversations of words with
Whoever I wish
would listen ignores
And whoever is
willing is disqualified based on the ration
Of my penis and
or the contents of my skull
In disquieted
disagreement with the compatibility of their cranial compartment
The energy
required to move beyond introductions is incapacitating
Given the anchors
of this zip code and the math of my career
I must change, I
am trying and I am not trying
What the fuck
else can I do?
I have nothing
left, no remainder, nothing but flecks
Stuck to a floor
only good for staring at to bring back memories
An exponential
inch away like two universal planes almost intersecting
But remaining
tangent in perpetuity in a ballet of undulation
Approaching and
retreating, approaching and retreating, closer and farther
Cognizant of the
probability of the other dimension’s existence, yet incapable
Of confirmation
through any sense that makes us human
Mornings, lunch
breaks from work, five o’clock digital ticks
Budgeting
planning, anarchism, nihilism, rather watch the world burn
Than be teased by
the bastard half-child of hope, a single chromosome deformity
Barking,
taunting, grinning as if the hemispheres could ever unite in gleeful prancing
Spit the bit,
unhinge the script into an entire rearrangement of letters
Unfurling
syllables like flags of states into smeared colors of fabric
Strewn across the
poop decks of grand vessels trampled by rodents
Scurrying up from
the galley, bombing feces on the stars and captain’s route map
Smear the waste
of it all, this pirate frigate is on course to oblivion
Arrived at
drifting to an unannounced arrival centuries ago in an ocean
Where time is
meaningless, the drift will never end.
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