Seeing the pond
without ripples
It was not the
stone you found to throw
Or the logs I
will never shed beneath
Their weight or
algae growth smearing
The bark, but not
your hands
The maelstrom,
the avalanche, the catapult
Submerge the rock
absent suds
Or explanations
for alligators
None of the
motions bear the permanence
Of the
mid-morning afternoons of recounting
Phantom days, as
if you tried to avert or assist
This depression
that pulsates inside my wake
I know I am
misshapen, cloven foot and tar lung
Battling a will
to remain alone, shed companionship
For the joys of
estrangement; I am addicted to my alone
Sweet and
sensuous, the rafters of solitude scale their arias
So magnificent
Despite my drugs,
I fought for us to persevere, to bond the burden
Of my urges with
a slipstream of empathy for the limits I bring to pace
The slashed
tires, the lockout, the sabotage and slander; I forgive
The idea that you
fought for me, that you sought my therapy
That there ever
was a pause to see my well-being, as your well-being
I abhor the core
of your bewitched humanity gasping for the crux
Of what makes
love palpable by the masses of us sinners
Be still, be vibrant
in the zeal of your phantasmal convictions
So Republican
affixed on an imaginary candidate
Preferable to
invent the life we lived, rather than admit
My addictions
were no match for your own.
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