Some
days I feel there is nothing to say, nothing to write
On
these days I feel the most dead
Distant
in the universe
The
arbitrary has taken over
The
only thing worth a damn to say
Is
the search, the search for the obvious
The
ubiquitous everything
Scaled
in the silence
The
charade tramples over it
Giving
us things to do
So
I do not want to do anything
But
think, talk to myself, maybe write
But
some days not even that
The
distance takes over
There
is no point, the interconnection is lost
Between
all beings, things, and this illusion of autonomy
The
delusion of individuality in borrowed tricked volition
The
majestic platform of choice
As
if time of before, now, and later is all a single instance
Flashing
So
that whatever this parcel elects is only done into itself
In
the whole
Vacillating
between absolute arbitrary and connection
Absorbing
into the singularity
Some
days I feel there is nothing to say, nothing to write
On
these days I feel the most dead
The
universe goes from beloved to stranger
Alone
to trillions of hearts pumping love or fear choosing bravely
I
want to be a chooser, I want to be brave
Some
days I do not feel brave
I
want to see one face that ain’t looking through me
Just
one to go on the journey and the requested feel like death
Like
not yet son, keep going down, you have to destroy more of yourself
To
find the door to that key materializing in the silence
Maybe
one day it’ll feel like something
But
today just feels like nothing, like nothing
As
long as I have this breath
I
can blow it back up, expand
Remember
the something as the whole
Like
everything, like everything
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