I
think I was supposed to live a monastic life
But
religion tastes like a tar ball
My
parents thought I was going to be a Catholic priest
When
I was in high school
Because
I did not go on many dates
I
could count them on my fingers
Maybe
two girls in four years
Neither
was any kind of relationship
My
best friend was gay
Maybe
that confused the matter for them
I didn't know, didn't matter
Either
way I wrote
I
filled notebooks, thought
Contemplated
the whys
Still
do
My
only real relationship has been with the universe
I
was married
Involved
with another for four years after
But
in my guts
It
was always the universe
They,
me, part of the same whole
Not
puppets, but flow
Drawing
me to meditate, dwell, see beyond
Low
conversations, core, to the essence
Of
what we are
The
power of broken hearts and
Conversations
in heads on pillows prior to slumber
Sexual
release endorphins and tingling God
Asking
me you have to be alone
To
do what you need to do
Wondering
how to accept
This
is how I have to be
Like
a monk, a priest, an imam, a rabbi
Without
the storyline in an elaborating pamphlet
Maybe
a bar room and urge to ponder
Wanting
interconnection with a soul
Knowing
all I got is this damn universe like an elephant
Whispering,
you’re not done, you’re not done
Go
get back to work
Smalltalk
does not apply to your accessible assets
It’s
forfeit; to go where you need to go
So
grab a pen and scribble notes
Take
a book for any gathering
Try
to make sense of it; that’s your job
Not
the one with the paycheck
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