I
am not here
I
think that has been the problem
Planet,
universe, cell phone
I
am only present in shade
Particles
waver between where I have been, will be and am
As
I exist in both
Thoughts
drift satisfying no one
Destined
for isolation connected with the whole and nothing
Seated
in a two-top café reading The Count of Monte Cristo
Listening
to the tattoo women gossip of mistresses and husbands
Internet
profiles and messages of identity
Thinking
about who is mating with whom
I
don’t want skin-art or a Halloween costume
That
would be like declaring presence as if it mattered
What
I appeared to be like people could see me
Another
bar room concert solo
I
am not here
I
think that has been the problem
Introductions,
cordial reflections
It
takes a moment for my ship to return
A
few seconds for my brain to exit that plane
And
conjure words appropriate for the surface of my body
Viewed,
watching, participating in this dance
Mind
is staggered hoping there is another place
A
bigger picture washing in ways imperceptible
Causing
the pause to search knowing nothing will ever be found
Yet
the search is everything
The
retirement, the status, the hell of distraction piles stacked
Nah,
just the journey, the quest, the blazing soul asking questions
Praying
to grant oneself permission to be with people,
To
be present in full either here or there and end this Halfling
From
this grand purgatory
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