Function
is relative to the output,
The
process is often critical,
Yet
rarely analyzed in the conclusion
If
the byproduct is of presentable appearance
(I
dare not use proper names, even in my own poetry)
The
names read and somehow hers registers
The
most phantasmal of the bunch, yet in analysis potentially the most damning
Dependent
on the quandary if the woman actually exists or not
Existence
translates to sadism, nonexistence a varied flavor of hope,
For
how can one contemplate forlorn sentiments for an imaginary creature?
The
mind is left boggled with riddled bullet holes of thirst
For
all manner of certainty, joy, and frustration
A
measure of me wishes to drink of anger to
Claim
some entitlement for recompense, yet
That
is folly and feckless,
Part
of me wishes for the indulgence to be a rule breaker,
To
go with passion over logic for a fleeting carpet ride
That
I could be gifted the oasis to converse;
The
silence could be eviscerated to a dusty pith of past
Men
are prohibited from dreaming, we are paragons of confidence
Need
is corrosion, vulnerability and dependence oxidizing infections
For
love to take refuge a piece of our panoply must be removed
In
order for any horse or rider to enter our gates
I
think of junior-high yards and purple notes with bubble script
Sophomore-year
and the acne minefields and mind maps
The
Junior-year dance floor and the metronome demagnetizing
Three
years of college and the voided attempts of commute imp
The
spout-rants of an Esplanade avenue bar room, the sign-up lists
The
ink pens in taxation classrooms jostling attendance
Chances
taken and roaches pouring out of a box of Malt o Meal
My
god the Abita Amber on the porch drank a third and poured in the sink
The
green metallic table and the neighbors’ listening-distance
The
French door threshold with buttocks pressed into a fetal-ball
The
black-misting drops and walk in a New Orleans Saints fleece
I
am wearing four years later as I type these words
The
silence of such hallways and living rooms resounds
With
the customary besotted-sobriety of normal
Oh,
the machinations of the nothingness personifying the surfaces
Of
floorboards and popcorn ceilings like ear drums
As
if since the silence speaks such arias, the silence can listen as well
So
one is drawn to bellow a cacophony of rebuke, bargaining, and disclosure
The
volumes upon volumes pile with digital ink to smear away truth entirely
So
that one may find forgetfulness in the accumulation
For
to a poet memories are galleries of sentiment one is tortured
To
walk round repetitively for eons,
For
as an artist can visualize a painting before it is painted and never un-see it
Or
a musician can hear the song in is mind before it is composed and never un-hear
it
Poets
are doomed to have the detailed depiction of their emotions
Sit
like Van Gogh or Mozart in exquisite punctilious technicality
In
the museums of our minds, the anguish and felicity become entrenched
Not
into segregated galleries, but into mangled mementoes of time
The
hours, days reckon with tours of permanence
As
if like a tattoo one can only blind one’s skin by placing another batch of ink
On
top the remark of history, yet one knows fundamentally the lines of the former
Exist
below, whether one has secondarily blanketed their occurrence
These
words were spoken, these silences given sword and arrow
One
knows the hue and voracity of the hallway of responding with such ignorance
One
knows the quantity of ale left in the bottle, the grip of the precipitation on
one’s cheek
So
in now I remember bicyclists down Magazine Street where the third following in
the pack
Fell,
bruised a knee, and the couple in the front and the horde in the rear
Started
and stared asking in smatters, “Are you Ok?”
As
if the words could find pertinence in the ache of the limb or vertebrae
As
the skull of the rider slammed the asphalt
I
watched from beneath the balcony of a closed-on-Sunday restaurant
Knowing
these riders were not coming here; the horses and bicycles were all off
To
other streets, the pause was by chance until the knee was numbed of the contact
The
inquirers could be satisfied with the placations of their inner humanity
That
they had in fact asked to the condition of the fallen, and then assured
That
appearances were returned, that the rider kept on riding
The
rest assuming the fluid under the patella or the white bloods cells could be
mended
Absent
further communication
These
guided cyclists of Magazine Street, you now join the pirate brigands of silence
With
the purple note with bubble script, the acne mind maps, the dance floor
metronome
The
box of Malt o Meal, and my precious Abita Amber poured next to the soap holder
With
the ring and least I forget this fleece extending to my wrists this morn
You
are my inanimate crew to speak from the grand silences of my Louvre
The
blocks and blocks of canvases I may never go inside
Traded
for a stone of grey two from the curb before le Notre Dame
Oh
grand memory of yelling into the vastness, your retorts wind these foul-sails
Onward
into the triangle of islands found by those absent-minded fools
Blessed
with foggy memories and the absolution of forgetfulness
I
am left to the rack of my own reminiscence
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