Anger

I have difficulty expressing anger

I know this, but tend to forget it from time to time

I find myself reluctant to give myself permission to be angry 

Anger to me seems such a frivolous emotion

As it is expecting another’s volition to be subject to your favor,

Rather than the sovereignty of their choice  

As a believer in the absolutism of choice and burrowing internal consequence

I often find, absent horrible over-reaching offenses such as murder, rape, theft or

Those of a typical criminal variety, most elections of the emotional persuasion

Whether it be adultery, deceit, manipulation, or torment of a non-physical nature  

Are capable of being usurped by the human mind alone

Expecting such flawed pretenses as an apology from the wrongdoer

Is often of little solace and merely dressing of form over substance 

So who or what am I to ever draw anger to; systematic injustice, those of a macro-level?

In these I can see the application of anger if it instills action,

But still in most occasions anger is but a subcomponent of conscientious planning

Which may be bettered suited by contemplative detailed opposition  

I know rebellion is required as an appropriate response

Governments, laws, actions mandate a ferocious retort

I am a disciple of Joe Strummer and Chuck D too readily to discount this notion

So in anger has a place, but I am thankful not to the degree most would find applicable  

In my day to day life I feel my difficulties with anger,

Do not lie with anger conceptually, but my placement of self-entitlement for

Conciliatory overtures and the facts of a matter being certifiable

That in this instance this other chose wrong to do unto me and  

In this instance, anger is a suitable reaction, which once expressed

Will result in the assertion of my dignity appropriate to the situation

The other will not defame me or rebuke this charge by implementing a wall of silence

Or countersuit, but will in this occasion, make best efforts to abide 

To what is clearly called for not by my emotion, but my factual matter

My reluctance to see this as realistic is high, which makes my expectation of it occurring low

Therein I see my consideration on the environment where anger is suitable, reliable, or useful

As fallow ground growing little if any crop