Permission to be Happy

You would not let me go

You fought for us and with that the ice shattered

This permission I have been pursuing inside my volition

To love you

Fissured into a sightline in a current of your demand

That I was not negligible to your happiness

I was able to visualize the permanence you see in me

Stubborn to my skeleton

I asked for stillness

You gave me stability of comfort

Tell me you want me and you said

You wish to spend your forever by my side

The winter in my heart has thawed and I am ecstatic

Tempered in my robust enthusiasm, but pouring like a war of water

I could never combat the river’s solidity

I have waited for my spring for five years

I am flowing and I see your beautiful face as harbor

Praying in glances of common bond 

To see the seed of life come full circle

In the darkest before the dawn

I crumbled into an elixir of fear apt to sip the draught of death

Your faith in life’s bloom has let the glass slip from my cancerous fingers

The deadness is wandering to evaporation for other clouds,

But this morn I am smelling ambrosia in your embrace

This balance that I am not replaceable

Nor numbered in a fraction of forgetfulness

Has shook me to the crucible of my humanity

The chemistry of humble love registering has ensnared me in your meekness

I am breaking into sonic reverberation as the universe tolls

Let us be a family

You and me; balancing the alone inside the love

That I can be the full encompassing self I have always

And that is the man you love

I have never gone a day when I did not root for us behind my spider webs

I am drawn to you

You, me, daylight, midnight, roads, let’s roll!

For so long I saw peril in happiness; the risk of the stinger in looks

And in you I have given myself permission to be happy