I feel grief like fingernails
scratching their way past my lungs
Wanting me to want, to picture,
insert a face of wanting different than the nothingness
I feel the silent penitent stance,
the meditative plank
Like a military readiness to stave
the submission to the lethargy
Halloween approaching like a cackle
wind
Blowing knowing how the playful will
adorn fetishist robes
My gut wishes to dawn the masks and
have skin to romp with the night
Feeling the blankness like glue
sticking me into this apathy
That absent love’s bind to the
universal no face resonates
No parlor tricks entertain the walk
and the numb will ring the bells of Notre Dame
I will feel the defeat of a thousand
years echoing back
Struggling to dare out there alone
for another night, another night
To a fervent concert bar pounding
music as if I were alive
Pretending the nourishment was
sustainable to turn and here the woman is from Atlanta
Even then the decline for the hours
present; the messages like pigeons shot in flight
The rockets that fall right out the
sky
Her like the only answer flaring in
the approaching haunted eve
The pulse to write everything my
soul could muster in the ignominy of swallowing shame
In lakes of acreage surrendered,
what have me do for you love?
I build and I know this is not your
dwelling and I walk on in surrender to your whim
Stave the grief, stave the pain, and
I pray it be her will genuine as a human volition
Desires that the life I describe is
that which she has prayed exist from so deep within
Like Alice waking from wonderland realizing
the present was ever better than her dreams
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