I just needed a love affair
I felt like we were each on a plate
And I ruined it with not
understanding the question
I needed to rebuild and enjoy the
season
Time slipped and I cannot handle it
How close we were to tearing off the
shell of every inhibition
Of adolescent speech torn and
lover’s breached
The prisons I have held myself in
behind all this mad poetry
She was liberation in glitter and
all I had to do was keep my mouth shut
Love and not tattle on my heart
wanting to fall like a portcullis
Barring me in like a cold mask from
burning this ropes
God damn you God you give me an
outlet and all I did was ask for love
I want another change and my body is
bubbling in frustrated antiquity
Walled in and bursting in sexual
frustration
I thought the moment was there on
the cusp
All these ancient seashells have
slipped through my hands
I wanted convalescence for my heart
I got a woman who mocked love teased
like a chew spine
Made me feel ashamed for having
feelings despite her saying she was starting to have feelings
The cruelty of ironic destinies of
wanting a partner to claim me
For who I am in heart, for who I am
in heart
I would have given her it all and
see what stuck
Oh the disaster in the wanting;
Makes me feel like a gum wrapper
buried in the beach glittering for a sea gull
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