In the specter of
beliefs I feel the expectation of my despise
In the logical
probability of indifference I often manifest a presumption of circumspection
Hovering behind
the looks, words, tones, and guises of interplay
I imagine
befuddlement at how bizarre others view me, despite realizing their apathy and
better tasks
This is, as I know,
self-projection that I believe myself to be odd
My foundational
comprehension of normality is skewed
As I assume the
vast majority of the world’s population perceives
Atheism,
contrarianism, introversion, and thirst for the empirical to leave me the
helmet of the outsider
To adorn in
battles which do not exist for the tangible, but in the sentimental
Spears in the side
of men and railroad spikes are hammered to require the sight and sound
I feel like the
world hates me for being who I am, which as a raised Catholic
May be my doubt
that I am or am not destined for perdition
Based in no small
part on this internal constitution
So therein dances
hypocrisy like an electric-chair necklace to sport as totem
I ponder if
whatever I tempt certitude for could crackle
Like an
octogenarian’s leg as he steps on the ice float to suicide at sea for the good
of the tribe
Traditional
folklore as to what has happened in time versus the stories told
Twinkle like
boreal sky-lights phasing in a fazed man to sprinkle tap-water and find
salvation
As the drops drip
follicles and ivory garments guessing who is there to explain
That all these
eyes glaring are as equally confused, rather than biased towards one’s
nonexistence
As if I owe a debt
for breathing oxygen that could have been utilized for another
Lungs inflate as
repetitious thefts and an engorging debt commensurate with hatred
As each moment
expands so does the differential between the measure of the ecumenical desire
Of the populace
that it would be easier on all involved if I would just go away
Quit speaking,
writing, trying, wanting, believing, thinking
Silence the horde
and plummet the casket into the fallow ground
So that nothing is
emitted to double the damnation permeating the countryside
I recognize the
apathy and in a way this imprinted anger is like a prayer
That some of these
people would care, as I cannot resolve my days with her or the hers before her
So the globe has
become a sea of doppelgangers mouthing such craggy- speech hurling boulders
I am exhausted and
hunger for softness; a nesting ground
Stoned to life,
bludgeoned with faith’s reply so that all is numb
The remaining
inkling of wanting pops in the correspondence to remind me I am still alive
That after all is
what pain is for.
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