I spoke with my
grandmother,
I have not earned
the right to be so slothful as to read fiction.
Every moment is a
fleeting tablecloth of time to set.
One can invest
nourishment of learning or regret,
So with this
Sunday morning I made a list for the day:
To call my cousin
and see how she is doing after the accident and
Peering out to the
advent of her first adult job.
I will change the
feces ridden waste-water dousing my daughter’s turtles in the garage
These environments
are changed weekly and so I must see that the reptiles
Do not escape this
time into the garden smashing their skin against the house bricks
As if that led to
a bayou and once grown they may not be made into soup
As I prepared from
a frozen snapping version of their genetic cousins yesterday
Purchased from the
Westwego, Louisiana shrimp lot and mixed with a trinity
Of onions, bell
peppers, celery awash in cayenne, sherry and boiled chicken menstruation
The brew was
primordial reaching back into seeing the texture in the muscle tissue
Divergent, but
similar in ultimate origin to crustaceans, birds or mammals
Typically in the
pot so that I may shop on the web to Amazon
After signing up
for a habitat for humanity volunteer day on August third
I hunt for musical
entrees from standard bearers that I may not have uncovered in full as of yet
To Mahalia
Jackson, Sam Cooke, Big Mama Thorton, George Carlin, and Nirvana
With a tribute to
Woody and Lead Belly and no break to pray the rosary in front of the television
Like you do so
beautifully every wake and riding your stationary bicycle
To keep the cells
in your legs reminded that you are committed to life
I am wandering my
kindle electronic library showing you the range
From Hitchens,
Einstein, Dawkins, Hawking, Sagan, Freud, Jung, Kierkegaard and on and on
So that, no I have
not earned the right as to read fiction yet,
I must invest in
the foundation of the countless lifetimes set before me
Read, listen,
consider, and write on occasion what pops in, but perpetually
Cognizant that to
move forward it behooves oneself to be armed
With the ammunition
of those bearing the badge of a lifetime of committed hours
Pushing the
barrier of human understanding that inch further so that I might dare to drive
on
Another measure,
however incremental I was not so foolish to place myself
In the land of privilege
to take a Sunday for such indolent practice of worship
Or assumption that
I need bake the bread from the start and claim accomplishment
Ignoring the
measures of ration set before sleeping in libraries like oxygen
Waiting to be
breathed in by inquisitive children of the trees
Daring to grow
humbly like the tortoise, aging slowly, watching
Lungs inflating,
deflating methodically observing the universe
In the basic act
of respiration
Penance,
veneration in a building to statues
Idolatry with
commandments against idolatry,
Oh the time wasted
that could be spent,
So I am reading,
listening, viewing, observing
So that I may do
I do in the ocean
of empathy through the jungle land
Basking on the
shores of vagabonds begging for a purpose
Wanting so
completely to be needed
Knowing we are all
lost and found inside cities
Constructed,
bought, sold, and demolished inside ourselves
We see the streets
melted and rising like phoenixes waltzing
As seconds dancing
away into the oblivion of moments
We can never have
back
Grandmother,
One day I may read
fiction, but it is not that day yet.
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