Friday, June 7, 2013

Dirty Mirror



Kidding myself morning after morning, recycling and already older
Aging done and the dust comes pouring out my mouth, nostrils, eyeballs and hair
Every sunrise I stare in the mirror
The resignation maps in as all of this has danced too long in my rhythm

To where there is only standing, shifting inches and promises holding
Misty sand dehydrated plans of withered roots
Reaching figures across evacuated bedrooms and the sentiment of preferable loneliness
The sight of possibility is a twister in the heartland, barometric chaos in Nebraska

Helicopters are the only escape and whirlybirds get flipped like mustangs
Running for their lives as the suburban sprawl creeps West
Knowing the Olive Garden and the Lowes will leave nothing left
For the colts to eat that’s green, just gritty nubs of yellowing gray to clean

The surface until the whole Earth rubs raw against teeth and seeps into the jaw
Wanders through the mandible into the brain, neurons start adapting, the serotonin stops
And the insane becomes sane; the concrete starts looking good to eat
The rocks, the grit and the pasture is a memory of Freudian slips

Beneath the masquerade that younglings ever attended the valley parades
Migrating stallions and broke-back hills, the fishing holes are calling and nothing will
Replace the taste of the snow-melted water or the springs from the depression
Rising out of winter into hearts of common-drink

Bought and sold and the fare to pass is too much for a common-man
The grit blankets the rest; ask a question and the sounds exhaust in the very air consuming them
To traverse from one’s larynx to another’s cochlea; the hammer never rings the anvil
The riders have booted ever stirrup raping the bare skin until normalized

Like parents yelling at drivers ahead for moving too slow so that their engine sits idle
At a traffic light, late for work and child at home for the summer with no one to play with
In another city, days shrinking like raisins bagged up and never eaten
The sit-down cereal milk is rarely poured upon the grain that is grown

The seed has its own commercial genetics and nature has been told to go home
To another planet as if she was a spouse who was told she is no longer welcome in this marriage
Humanity has moved in with our mistress and the kids have come along
Mother is wailing out there in the badlands looking for the heart right now

Slap the water from the sink upon my face; spread this resin texture in my hair
Get through another walking-mummy sequence and pay the price I’ve already paid
The engine starting in the garage questioning pulling out
Earn a living to give it away; see the glow in the others that still have a chance to run
The recognition eludes in the novel of what has not become

The dust-dance with the devils of crackling-romance, the zombie-children of vagabond graves
The highways of Sisyphus-stone Sundays pushing the rock seeing it roll back upon toes
Knowing what comes next as the story goes written before and written again
Sunk in the gut of the difference between real and to pretend

That phone call is going to come; that girl is going to show up
The bicycle won’t have that accident each time the play is rerun
Bent up back from the smashed-in truck, busted teeth and no shrine to build
The blood drains across the sidewalk as the grass covers up the salvageable in a mother’s milk

The front yards of the neighbors arouse with the noise, hear the screaming
To bring their own children inside; to avoid the commotion of another body about to die
The St. Augustine lawn withers in the sun as the whole community turtle-heads-in
Only to see the real estate agents run to some city further and further out

The chasm is quaking as the urban blight eats the stomach out
Of a city like a Somali refuge’s bulging abdomen on a dusty highway
Walking and National Geographic takes a picture for the world to stare
And say, “Ain’t that sad. Here’s a quarter,” as we take a sip of a Bud or a Coke or toke another Marlboro

Man on his horse, lasso and looking the part, rugged and tall, bandana and called
To reign in the grazing lands with fence posts, owned by the bank with God notes
Navaho, Sioux, Cherokee all set to gamble on the science of yellow fever blankets
And bullets against bison and saddled up horse meat

One is one’s purpose fishing the stream, but when the water is gone
Even the fish can be heard screaming stacked like pauper-flapping audience members
To the heated global parade, the paper mill’s poisons dumped rather than caged

The animal’s urine made by a machine, the animal’s breath from a smokestack
The animal’s sight from a camera catching the red-light runners
The animal’s fur falling out foaming on drugs to grow it back
Another to get the blood flowing and the penis on track

Dust-man glaring retinas reflecting the inverse and it could always be worse
Round about mantra echoing in the head, when does the answer comes back
Better off, better off ….
Never

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