The idea that
someone could be happy to see me is apocalyptic
The entire
section of the universe I have been raised or rooted to branch out from
Is based on the
notion of antipathy, aversion, and at best apathy, indifference
But to look
forward to, prompt or incentivize the presence of my being
Is cataclysmic
glacier-melt, volcanic-ash upheaval
The fault-line
quake juggernaut foot-stomp flash-dance
The hurricane
twister-competition drink-the-flask freeze-up
On stage center
spot-light freak-out paralysis
I can’t move in
such sands. I don’t know how.
Wasn’t built to
or asked to navigate the idea of being requested,
Sought or
appreciated to abide
Deer in
flash-bulb moonlight truck stops abruptly to patiently allow crossing
Mine is the
world of the unanswered phone call
The week long
waiting and swallowed recognition of what silence amounts
Resignation of
diluted want dripping callow impetuosity into meditative Bourbon
The toxic
draught lacquered lozenge for the esophagus
Mine is the
twenty page conversation with myself
Recycled into
fifty or seventy page iterations over revolutions of the sun
Attempting
closure in doppelganger volumes asking for a moment to hold court
Knowing the
phases of the moons, the dark shadow hollow cores
The never return
ring, the banded stone at the side of the sink without comment
The blank
screen, the cavernous mailbox
The pittance
drips to an ancient stomach
Blatantly
eviscerated chin-up machinist turned pan-handler
This is done
knowing parachutes are illusions
I never packed
one or asked anyone to jump with me
At the start of
life one startles already falling
It all depends
on perception: the ground, the clouds, the others
Debris or not
debris
Recognizing the
smack potential in flashes then submerging back into daydreaming
I keep my eyes
open, all of it, at once
Which leads me
to feel like a narcoleptic voyeur of somnambulists
Occasionally
garnering moments of clarity pondering who is really asleep
The art, poetry,
music, social-zoology cosmos in complete stillness
When granted
perspective of the vibrating oneness
I am amazed with
the idea of anyone happy to speak with me
Because it
entertains the idea of what real is
Of what a moment
is; that I am in one with another being
So it is; to be
in
The fall out the
sky, the sleep or awake, the texture of the surface
The impact
unveils as colorful and magical
As dissolving
into the universe and us just being here
Like two smiling
children on a log watching fireflies
Let us be here
You and I
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