Parallel Paths: Pathos, Politics, and Poetry
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Friday, September 28, 2018
The Obvious
I have been waiting my whole goddamned life for you to show up
Ok
So you get it now
Somethings are obvious
They hit you like shattered bar lights out of nowhere
The sky falls, rains glass, sparks fly
Electrify a dormant longing
That you've sat with in long discourse
As the specter on the pillow on the other side of the bed
The soft foolishness of recognition
How could I not know?
All this gesturing on dance floors
Swearing at satellites to false moon goddesses
Searching for nature's complement
Flush in gorgeous blood and skin passionately ready
The scars and madness
The torment of longing for a set of eyes
To stare into across a table enraptured in memory
Like medicine for the peril of dying without drinking
From the well we all hope to find in our own time
This is music appearing to begin to play
Realizing this is the melody always in the background
Of everything one has ever known
Surfacing into the foreground
Found in a pair of eyes and skin and yes
At stake in a present moment to declare
I want to try
I will take on the terribleness of the shitshow with you
A tribe life mate, face to face, humble and exalted
Healing and growing in the madness of declaring love
This is the audacity of knowing what one wants
And who one is with another human complement
Wednesday, September 12, 2018
hard space
I never seen a feeling from a woman
That in retrospect had vulnerability in it
That if you go
I will feel loss
There is a manner of exchange
A price for presence
To know to be
Accrues a personal debt
That if this is not to be
One surrenders to feel
A space is created to fit
The act of holding
This is where feeling nests
In the thatch of broken aliveness
The egg yolk messiness
The stared heart invests
There is a look
I have seen feeling from a woman
In the way viewing other men
The look exists in this space
Wanting
And when I think of these eyes
I think of hope but most so
What the lack of this space appears
In hard indifference
That in retrospect had vulnerability in it
That if you go
I will feel loss
There is a manner of exchange
A price for presence
To know to be
Accrues a personal debt
That if this is not to be
One surrenders to feel
A space is created to fit
The act of holding
This is where feeling nests
In the thatch of broken aliveness
The egg yolk messiness
The stared heart invests
There is a look
I have seen feeling from a woman
In the way viewing other men
The look exists in this space
Wanting
And when I think of these eyes
I think of hope but most so
What the lack of this space appears
In hard indifference
Thursday, September 6, 2018
Three minutes past
One held breath, staring a clock past midnight, with a pinch of warm ache behind eyelids, remembering the nauseating flavor of hope swishing in aged spit. Two crumpled missives pasted into internet slurry dangling in retort to contradictory responses. Three resignations cumulatively folded into the self, knowing the odds of the bug crawling all the way across the desk before thumb and index fingers smear its exposed body are nil. Somehow the insect does! Applauded by soundlessness recognizing the spectators have all become preoccupied. For today I was a man and will become a boy again, into the sexless invisibility, praying to wallpaper and watching fan blades with a dry tongue.
Saturday, September 1, 2018
Hope is
Hope
is the most sinister of addictions.
Taste
the elixir of safety on the tongue
Bubbles
of might populate space taken
To
be outside the normalized confines
A
man rests child pose on beige carpet
Head
to floor facing away from the computer screen
As
his American god
No
answers in the digital scrolls
The
patient agony of expectation
For
letters to materialize form the ethereal witchcraft
Of
a specified other human’s choice to type
And
alter the dreams of another human being
There
is a parceled swallow of routine
Disrupted
by the hope fuming its way into the parlors of thought
Rumbling
down potholed streets like a Sewerage and Water Board truck
Finally
coming to fix the leaks
The
dare not speaks
The
iced over roots of stumped trees
The
warnings of best be this way as not to arouse suspicions
Of
what it means to be a human wary of hope
The
ecstasy and the foul bilateral pinch of the abdomen
Clenching
the human form inward to recognize
The
silence will remain unbroken
The
stasis of this predicament ossifies
Tongue
glides across implanted teeth
Stung
anxious blood burns in forearms of matted hair
The
urge for an adult to rationalize verbal release or tears
Or
some representation of the disappointment exceeds the outer expression
For
the addiction of a cumulative deficit
The
pull toward hope is commensurate with hope’s unclimactic compensation
The
musicality is an opera of indifference
Hummed
between coronary beats, the pause in the lub dub
The
stare outward into the nothing to explain
The
did not start, the horror of might, the hope in the getting hopes up
The
cliched acrobatics of peppered positive reinforcement
Into
the ears of a human trained to second guess every decision
As
no path in the labyrinth begets blood flow
The
same pale moon and cold hard ground
The
torn sheet and numb gaze across the horizon
The
seafarer’s mirage hazy hope and full of terrors
Wednesday, August 22, 2018
In the Stack
You tell yourself, “Today was just a bad day.”
Then remember one does not count, but there is
still a stack of bad days.
You open up your Facebook feed to friends’ posts “Remember
to be kind to yourself.”
A poet advertises a lyric t-shirt “I love you. I’ll
miss you. Be careful.”
In a realm where no one talks ear to mouth.
Not alone feeling alone in the stack.
Play Pen
There is a fundamental question,
do I want to be? I try hard to want to say yes, knowing the parts of me that
deem it so logical to say no. These parties hold a pathetic argument. Neither
wants to speak too loudly into the microphone. So I go through my days neither
being or not being hazed in depression seeing little point to life, seeing my
being as an anchor for others and self-isolating to minimize the collateral damage.
Occasionally I can invent an illusion in digital correspondence until I say too
much or too little or utter what feels like the truth at the time. I laugh at
how simple a question like an infant that refuses to eat his food. Plop dumb
and squalid in a stink playpen. Shit in diapers. Refuse to develop the muscles
to stand and climb out.
Reruns on channel one
It is difficult to take yourself seriously
when a vision of your hand holding a gun to your head and watching chunks of
skull and blood fly out onto the door of the room you are sitting in replays
over and over all day long no matter how you try to occupy your time. The humor
of the repetition flops in every so often that this scene is always impossible
for the human choosing the act to ever see. So it is suicide remains in this fantastical
quality of unrealness. That is unless you survive, but even then the failure in
the incomplete act stalks the actor as the goal was not to see the film, but to
finally un-see it.
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